Well, I have started this blog for more than one reason. First of all, I have a lot of my own ideas and thoughts on life and health and I love to write them down to gain perspective. Secondly, I usually write this down in a diary, which I used to keep in my handbag. A few weeks ago I got a huge wake up call and fright when my handbag got stolen with my diary in it and with all its contents. I had horrible nightmares about some stranger (someone I didn't want) reading my intimate thoughts etc etc. Luckily my handbag and all its contents was retrieved, but I had a huge wake up call. A friend of mine came up with the idea of me writing my own blog instead of writing it down on paper and risking losing all of my work.
A few years back I learned about the Law of Attraction and since then have been on a journey to master this law of life. This blog will be about my thoughts and feelings on Law of Attraction and how I am learning to master it. I believe that we all have the power inside of us to become what we dream of becoming, to gain what we need and to achieve our wildest dreams... all by just controlling our thoughts and keeping them positive and in tune with what our goals are. I also believe that life is not worth living if you haven't got goals and dreams. Working towards a goal, even if it is with tiny little steps or with one large leap gives us meaning in life, a reason to live and a reason to feel good about ourselves, helping others along the way is just as important and fulfilling and one of the stepping stones towards a better life. Helping our fellow human beings = helping ourselves. We are all part of the same energy after all, we are all one in the end anyway, we are all part of the pattern, we are all dance partners in the dance called life, each step we make effects the steps other's make and vise versa.
You will see me using the word "Espavo" a lot. It literally means: "Thank you for taking your power" used as a greeting for both hello and goodbye. The word's vibrational matrix helps people reconnect to ancient memories of their true origin. I quote from one of my favorite most inspirational book that I have read "Going Deeper" by J.C Koven: "Creation, is paralleled in the espavo paradox, which states: "To truly claim one's power, one must first give it away." Like the Phoenix does every time it dies." Now that you know what it means, you will understand why I use it. ;-)
I do not believe in religion as I believe strongly that religion is a restriction to higher knowledge and truth and I think that religion as been the cause of most wars and conflict between humans and has caused way too much hurt pain and judgement in the world. However, I also believe that any religion is true in the mind of the believer. I do not think any religion is wrong or untrue etc etc. We all believe in one thing in the end and that is that there is a higher power. :-)
Other things that you may find me writing about in my blog is about healthy living. I strongly feel that to feel good spiritually emotionally and mentally one has to look after your temple (your body). I have a strong passion for this and about living the healthiest lifestyle that I can.
I am a dancer.... no I do not dance professionally, but I have been dancing since I was a toddler. First I was a ballerina, then a modern dancer and then I just started doing it for fun. I dance either to forget or I dance to remember, either way it is another one of my passions that I will keep close to my heart forever. I like to think that I dance through life: Everything in the universe has rhythm. Everything dances. -Maya Angelou
I hope you enjoy what I write about and I hope I bring at least some of you inspiration and maybe even some good advice or guidance. Either way Enjoy it! <3
Peace and love
Espavo!
I have been doing a few alternative things when it comes to my health lately. In general I am not somebody who goes to the doctor for any reason under the sun and I like to look after myself naturally without needing to go to the doctor. Some people cannot understand why I do certain things... probably because of the close-minded way they were brought up or maybe it just goes beyond their way of thinking and so on and so on... I mean there could be all sorts of reasons why people refuse to understand natural ways of healing and alternative ways of living, so I thought I would write about my experiences with two types of cleanses/detoxes I did in the last month, maybe then people will understand my reasons a little better after reading this:-
A few weeks ago I did a colon detox. This involved fasting for 5 days. No solid food but drinking 1 tablespoon physillium husk with apple juice 5 times a day, 2 hours apart. Psyllium Husk on its own is basically a colon cleanser, but using it during a fast increases the effects. Psyllium Husk sweeps your colon. To explain what it does I have used this example:-
*Imagine a dirty pot, still having bits of food stuck to the sides and everything. Rinsing it will water and soap is not going to clean the pot properly, to clean a pot like that you need a pot scrubber or a stronger material to clean it and this is what the Psyllium Husk is for your colon.* - Just imagine not cleaning a pot and just using it over and over again without cleaning it properly. ...Yuck!!!
The hardest part of this detox is not eating solid food for 5 days, but after 2 days your body gets used to it. On my first day I had so much energy! I actually got on my bike and cycled for 30 minutes and did aerobic exercises... but I will not recomend anyone to do that as I felt really weak afterwards. Rather do not exercise while doing the detox (going for a walk or something light shouldn't be a problem though), but do not worry about your energy levels either, you will actually feel great and full of energy, this is probably due to all the toxins leaving the body and the minerals and vitamins you get from the apple juice.
The most rewarding part of this detox is not only how great you feel afterwards and during the detox but also that you are actually able to see what your body is getting rid of! Some people who have done this detox have found crayons and sometimes even marbles in their bowel movements! (Gross, I know, but trust me, when you actually see what has been stuck in your body for all these years leaving your body, it makes you feel 10 times better!) Your colon has old food in it which CANNOT be good for the body, if you were a child that ate whatever you got your hands on, like the people who found crayons and marbles in their bowel movements, you probably also have it. I will not be elaborating what I found in my bowel movements, all I am going to say is that I passed a lot of mucoid plague, a buildup of mucoid plaque becomes a problem as the intestinal system is unable to expel it, and it instead starts to interfere with the energy levels, the person’s health, and the removal of waste from the intestine.
I am so happy that all that stuff is now out of my body! No wonder so many people get colon cancer! The harmful toxins and chemical build up in your colon can cause loads of health problems such as colon cancer, skin problems toxic blood, obesity, constipation and much more.
Go to this website for a lot more information on the subject: http://www.best-colon-cleanse.com/
...and check out this website for what mucoid plaque is: http://www.welikeitraw.com/rawfood/2005/06/whats_real.html .
You will be amazed at what horrible stuff is actually in your body!
A lot of people are skeptical about doing this because some people don't believe that us humans should go without food for such a long time... how close minded is that! From personal experience I have never felt better while and after doing this detox. I lost 4.5Kg (I didn't pick up the weight again either), I feel lighter and healthier and I also felt closer to my higher self. Yes... it was also a spiritual experience for me, I felt closer to God because being without solid food for this period of time humbles you. You realize that there is a Higher Power watching over you. Before doing this I didn't think I would survive without food for so long but I did and it just shows you, us humans do not actually need as much as we think we need.
Other people thought I did it for the weight loss... how much more superficial do you get?! Yes I lost weight but that was a bonus, I did it for my health. After having a huge fright from being told that I have cancerous cells in my cervix I realized that even though I am young and "healthy" (as I saw it) didn't mean that I was. It is so sad to see that some people really have no idea that they themselves are destroying their health with what they eat. Medication, like antibiotics, do not make you better in the long run, so going to a doctor is not going to make you a healthier person. Natural healing is the way... People need to open up their closed minds when it comes to these types of things!
The second detox I did, about 2 weeks after the colon cleanse, was a gallbladder cleanse. I did this cleanse mainly for my skin. I was feeling very pale and I do get a little bit of acne every now and then and this was irritating me. Also by doing this cleanse I got rid of all the old residue and toxins that were in my liver and gallbladder from my drug and alcohol abuse days. This detox involves not eating from 2pm and also not eating anything fatty that morning either and drinking Epsom Salts at 6pm, 8pm and then drinking half a cup of olive oil mixed with the juice of 2 grapefruits at 10pm. Then going to bed immediately and then drinking Epsom salts when you wake up, but not before 6am and then again two hours after that. You can eat after that whenever you feel ready, but nothing fatty etc etc.
For me this detox worked wonders but it was a horrible process. Not many people throw up but I did, apparently this is due to me having a lot of toxins in that area of my body, which did not surprise me at all! I threw up little crystals but the next day I passed gallstones as well, between 4 and 7 of them.
Please click on the link for more information on gallstones: http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/gallstones/
This is what a gallstone looks like, In the middle of a gallstone is the parasitical stuff. The greener and darker they are the older and longer they have been in your body, the more tanner (yellowy) they are the newer they are.
The same day after this detox everyone started noticing the change in my skin. I had more color in my skin and it even felt softer! I felt full of vitality.
The greatest thing about both of these detoxes is that you actually see what comes out of your body, which is really rewarding!
If you are thinking of doing something like this but are kept back from doing it because of other people's silly remarks and un-researched opinions ignore what they have to say and do it for yourself. What have you got to lose? I did a lot of research on the subject before doing it so that I was totally clued up on what my body was going to go through. These two detoxes that I did really helped my health in many ways and I will be doing these detoxes once or twice a year from now on.
Think of it as spring cleaning your body!
Espavo! <3
*I was having a little bit of trouble accepting my body before writing this blog (something I think all women or men go through from time to time.) After losing 20kg I would think I should be happy with myself and grateful for all my weight loss and my healthy lifestyle - but I am still skeptical and unsure about how I feel and look right now - It could just be a stage though - but it got me thinking a little deeper into this subject which also inspired me to get up and moving more again.*
Let me summarize what I have gone through in my life so far with regards to lifestyle so that you can get a better idea of where I am coming from:-
I have never had a big problem with weight, I have always had a fast metabolism and have been (for most of my life) active. 4 years ago however, I took a turn for the worst in this regard. I let myself go, fell into depression, was jobless for about 6 months and picked up a huge amount of weight. I do not know if the weight gain was directly as a result of these things that were happening in my life but it happened and I get the feeling the negative things in my life were actually the result of my weight gain - read on for an explanation.
To make things worse - I was not exactly aware of the fact that I was overweight (actually obese on the BMI scale but ja...) - I really do not know how I was not aware of it, must have been something physiological to do with it... Until one day I got told to my face (in a very nasty way) that I was fat! This made me actually LOOK in the mirror properly for the first time - and not only did I realize that I was overweight and did not like the physical reflection I saw in the mirror but I also disliked the person I had become inside. - and I think from then on I made it my goal to make a positive change.
I was going to get myself back on track in all aspects of my life and so changed my lifestyle. The first step I took was a food diary and I became careful and more aware about the types of food I ate and when I ate them, I also stopped going out and drinking so much which also made me realize what bad friendship choices I had made. - then came exercise which then helped me become even more stricter with my food choices which also then led to me becoming a runner - running 2km-3km 3 to 4 times a week! I also remembered how to dance again, there is nothing better than turning up the sound system or putting on your earphones and dancing it all out in front of the mirror or in the lounge. :-D I not only noticed an amazing change in my body but in my attitude as well. My social life changed for the better, I had like-minded and well moral friends who shared the same interests as me and that were GOOD for me and my man. I treated people better, my relationship with my love ones blossomed and I could handle stress and pressure with no problem at all. I no longer had emotional outbursts or depression - I felt alive again.
[This feeling of feeling alive mostly comes from the exercise - the feeling of running and the after effects of it reminds me of the feeling I get when I dance - I think the word to use that best describes this feeling is Freedom. Any type of exercise helps you get rid of all that tension, just like dancing - dancing however helps you let go of feelings emotionally, lets you express how you feel. Dancing for me helps me to let go of emotions that I hold on to - running helps me to put everything into perspective.]
It really did make me realize for the first time that you will not have respect for others and others will not have respect for you as a human being and for who you are until you have first gained respect for yourself. And it is also true what they say: - "you are what you eat."
Here is a great quote:
"On my fridge I have a saying that I have had for years; it goes like this:
'What I do today is important because I am exchanging a day of my life for it.'
This saying applies to everyone no matter what your lifestyle is."
Catherine Pulsifer
It also helped me gain back my spirituality again - it was almost as if all the stuff I was feeding myself and the restriction from exercise was causing a blockage in my spiritual energy flow and therefore also stopping me from functioning properly and from reaching my potential.
Even now while I am writing this down I am starting to feel a little better - getting this out has given me motivation to start upping up my game again - Even though I may not have picked up weight and may not need to do anything with my lifestyle I know I have slacked a bit when it comes to exercise and I have not been strict enough when it comes to my diet this winter. I am going to get my jogging shoes back on tonight and get this booty moving again - because it is not about being skinny or looking better than someone else and all those superficial things - it is about feeling good about yourself, inside and out - and that is our ultimate goal in the end is it not? To be happy. :-)
Hope this inspired someone else too.
Espavo!
